Oh, if I could tell you all of the “But God…” moments of my life.
However, all of these “But God…” moments follow a shameful deadness; I certainly went through a period of what scripture quotes above: being dead in the tresspasses and sins in which I once walked, living in passions of my flesh and carrying out my own desires.
Living through moments where I had utterly failed. Moments that stillseem to creep back in my head and convict me of how utterly lost I had been. Seasons of my life where I basked myself in the joys of this world and the sins of living.
For real, I have those shameful secrets, too.
In fact, you may be reading and know exactly what I’m talking about. About your own inadequacies and entirely about mine.
Friends, this is where it gets good. This is where, if you were sitting with me right now, my eyes would light up and my smile would grow larger. (If you know me you’d know I’m an incessant smiler, so this is saying a lot.)
He created us. We were separated from Him through the sin that haunts this world. He is Holy. He is all good. He loved us so much that He desires to reconcile us back to Him. He isn’t a Father who just lets His children fall away and stay rebellious. He patiently waits for us to fall on our knees at the cross of Jesus and truly accept what it means to be saved. For Jesus lived a perfect life for thirty-some years on this earth. He lived and showed miraculous works of God. Jesus came for the lost. He came for sinners who were not religious or high in their own minds, but for people who knew they failed. People like you and I who have those moments that creep up in our minds and convict us that we need a Savior. Jesus died for us.
Let that sink in.
I mean, you’ve heard it before, lots of times.. right?
Well, hear it.
Jesus died for you.
Jesus died so that He may cover our sins that we’ve made, the sins we make today, and the sins that we will absolutely make tomorrow. Just as sin came through one, sin was completely overthrown by the one, Jesus, when He came into this world and died, sinless, for all of us.
It took me a long time to fully get that. I’d heard it a lot of times as children Bible stories and at church. But it still was a process of letting it sink into my being. I mean, it presently is a lot to comprehend.
Especially knowing what I’ve done in my life.
That God, this God of our world, would care enough for me. That He would love me and would know me so intimately that He knows the number of hairs on my head (and probably the number that fall out each time I attempt to brush through it… just sayin’).
Friends, this is God’s u n a l t e r e d g ra c e
But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved— and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus. For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.
Unaltered grace. We can’t change it. No matter what we have done or what we will do, if we believe in Jesus, He lavishes His grace and forgiveness on us daily. His mercies are new every morning— and, goodness! Do I sure need that. We can’t alter God’s grace. Because He is and He always will be. Loving us. For us. Waiting on us to come to Him. Friends, God’s grace is so unbelievably refreshing.
So this is what my writing and seeking Jesus is all about. There is so much that I don’t know. There is so much about God and His goodness to be known. This is why I’m pursuing a Master’s of Divinity. Not because I am anywhere near Holy or good, but because Jesus so is. And, I promise you, once you experience God’s grace and when the Holy Spirit dwells in your heart your life will never be the same. There is so much more to this “Christian” thing than you may know. And it is worth chasing your entire life after.
I invite you to dive into His unaltered grace with me.
He will cover all of your shameful secrets and forgive you. Forgive yourself.
In Jesus, you’ve got that unaltered grace.